In the Library

Life is good on this side of the world. Everyday I learn something new about my countries history, about stem cells, educational philosophy, sometimes i even get new ideas on how to understand children with disabilities in the classroom.  Did you all know that at least 47% of students have a learning disability? I learned that yesterday in my SPED 350 course.
This weekend will be busy for me!! I am going to White Sands on Thursday, on Friday is Greek night soccer game, and on Saturday I am headed to Alamogordo with the international students. Sunday of course I have meeting!!
Sometimes I wish I could just sit down and have Fika with Katka, Adri, and Dana. They are some of my friends from Poland. Life was so slow and relaxed but as much as I loved it, I also thinking being busy is advantageous. I have finally gotten into a routine, my time management skills are much improved and i hardly ever forget to do my homework. I constantly remind myself not to over do it....I don't want to become a robot haha! 
With that note I definitely wouldn't mind a bottle of wine and a picnic before the weather changes.

hahaha...do you girls remember??
Always in my heart!

School has Started!

Twelve months ago today, I arrived in Europe. A place where I grew up and learned and experienced things that I would have never considered learning or doing in my own country. Yet today instead of reminiscing on my amazing memories and hating the fact that I was in HOT Las Cruces, I spent my day in a BIO class/lab and CEP class. I was running late, the air conditioner in my car is broken, and it was 105 F (40 C) degrees outside. No time to be sad. It was when I got home that I realized "today last year, I had arrived in Stockholm" A smile came across my face, as the memories went through my mind. It was then that I new I was going to be A-okay.
Transitioning from one life to another, and packing ones life into bags has been something that I could not comprehend. I mean it was Julia's life, Carlos's life, Krisi's life, My life and everyone else that left there homes for one year. Actual live's packed up and put at the bottom of an airplane or car. For the past 5 weeks that i have been home I have been hoping that someone other than Angie would understand what is going on in my head, but no one really understands around here. What has helped me these past few days was talking to a friend of mine that just moved his life to China. For a period a bit longer than my stay in Europe. He said he couldn't find his big bag and that he was just going to take a backpack for his whole stay. I remember saying that that was a little bit of stuff to take and that I took about 2 huge bags for just one year and he said yeah but you are a "girl." So true...I am a girl. As girls we tend to make a bigger deal of things that are actually so simple. For example, my mom got so upset the other day because I didn't rinse out the sink, my friend got mad at her guy friend for talking to another girl, and then my oldest friend in the world was worried of what purse to buy for her first day back to uni. All these things are things that we have chosen to do or to deal with and it is as simple as taking responsibility for the things we decided to do and not complain. After all it is what we decided to do.
This is exactly what Maelle told Dory, when she had just moved back home. And Dory told me this the weekend that I was coming home...but it took me until today, 5 weeks after my arrival, to understand that this is what I have chosen, I have chosen to come home and I will survive.
You never now, someday I might choose to pack my life again and set out for a new adventure with only a carry-on!
xoxo

Where is Home?

It hasn't been easy being home, I arrived in ELP airport on the 13 of July. I would like to say that it has been great here and that I am enjoying my time back home but that wouldn't be the truth. The truth is that I miss my European life, I miss my "Swedish" family and my "Polish" friends. Sometimes I wonder if it was all real, if it wasn't an Amazing dream I had. Everything here is the same. My house, the smell of my car, the way people dress, it is all the same. I don't know if that is a good thing or not?! I look all around me and I can't seem to find something that makes me feel happy. I keep telling myself to be patient and to give myself some time to readjust, the problem with that is that I don't want to readjust to the way I use to be. I grew up up there, I learned different things and became accustom to a life that was totally different from the one here. Not only because I partied and did whatever I pleased, but I also learned to be more patient, calm, and less materialistic. I feel that the more time I spend here I will eventually go back to my bad habits lol. Like spending hundreds of dollars on a cell phone plan and driving from city to city as if gas was air. But more importantly what if I start criticizing people for the way they dress because the fashion here is so unattractive to me or if I look down on people for making dumb remarks. I have always looked at myself as being a person who loves and never judges but for the past few weeks my thoughts have become so ugly towards my surroundings. Where is the "grown up" in that? I remind myself to be calm, to control my thoughts, I pray to God to help me see the beauty in whatever it is that I am going through. My head is a HOT MESS.
I love my family and I love my friends but I can't seem to be happy here. A friend once told me home is where you are happy and time and time again I catch myself calling Poland home.  

Sweet Sweet Angie

My Beautiful Angie...I was so sad last night reading every message you would send on facebook from London Heathrow Airport. I know that it is going to be tough for you these few days and I can only imagine that you want to cry and go back to Amazing Sweden, but please hang in there. Be strong and remember that I am only a Skype call away. Plus, I will be home in 13 days. We can go through this crazy change together.
I am trying so hard to enjoy my last few days here in Poland but I am ready to be in Madrid on Tuesday evening =)!! I am so excited to see Dory, Anaisa, Guss, and Juampa and the others that might be there.Don't get me wrong though, I am also starting to realize that I will say Good Bye to the girls here in Poland and it will be a good bye for a long time and it will happen in a heart beat.

I suppose we both new that eventually our time in Europe would come to an end. What I never imagined was that I was going to love this continent so much. I never thought that I would love a Dark-Long-Five month winter in Stockholm or old Polish Ladies yelling at me. I never thought that I would call this my home.  

I pray that you will be okay and keep it together till i get home to give you an understanding huge and smile. 
I love you and we will get through this change together!!
xoxo